A Christmas Depression Poem

I have a confession to make.

It's the Saturday before Christmas - and I'm not in the Christmas spirit.

It's probably because of the fact that I've been on a horror kick lately (much to my boyfriend's dismay - who just wants to watch "The Grinch" and "White Christmas). But..."The Haunting of Hill House," "Bird Box," and "The Chilling Adventures of Sabrina" on Netflix though!

In my defense I am reading a Christmas novel right now. I mean, well, sort of. It's "NOS4A2" by author Joe Hill - a novel about a supernatural killer who kidnaps children and takes them to "Christmasland." But, I digress.

But, between my dad getting open heart surgery, my brother almost dying and a girl at work trying to get me fired - this year has not been good for my anxiety. So watching happy Christmas movies that all follow the same formula make me depressed instead of happy. But, with horror movies - they make me feel so much better about my life!

I have a couple more days to get in the holiday spirit (I'm going to try my best!)

My friend Lily McNaughton conveyed her feelings about Christmas with this poem (although for me, my depression caused me "12 watched Netflix episodes" instead of "six unwatched episodes). Who else can relate?


Monica's goal is to raise awareness about suicide and help erase the stigma associated with mental illness. In 2012, she won first place in News Enterprise Reporting by the Michigan Press Association for her series on suicide in the community, and in 2013, was named “Digital Innovator of the Year” by the Local Media Association. In 2019, she received the Ambassador Award from the suicide prevention nonprofit Six Feet Over. She started the blog Meant to Live to help others by sharing signs of depression, reasons to live, resources, suicide and bullying prevention groups, other people’s stories and memorials. She especially wants to show people that they are not alone.

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